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adrenalinerush11 — Mon, 29 Nov 2010 12:41:11 +0000

2009 Christmas Wishlist

1. Good health to all my fam and friends.

2. world peace?

3. Good enough results for my O’s.

4. I won’t be late in enrolling for college.

5. A guitar. Electric or acoustic

6. A guitar pic that can never get lost. -,-

7. Clothes

8. Lots and lots of fooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood! :9

9. To go to the beach.

10. A panda.

11. Oh! a doggie! xD

12. Somehow, my broken keypads on my phone would magically be fixed.

13. To be strong no matter what

14. Not lose any loved ones..

HAHAHA! my christmas wishlist from last year which i also posted here in wordpress. surprisingly, they all were fulfilled! except for the panda wish. and wish no. 12. my phone got lost and i had to make do with my bro’s phone which does not have any broken keypads.

makes you wonder what God could just give you in due time ehh?

family.

adrenalinerush11 — Mon, 29 Nov 2010 12:17:00 +0000

“What is family? They were the people who claimed you. In good, in bad, in parts or in whole, they were the ones who showed up, who stayed in there, regardless. It wasn’t just about blood relations or shared chromosomes, but something wider, bigger. We had many families over time. Our family of origin, the family we created, and the groups you moved through while all of this was happening: friends, lovers, sometimes even strangers. None of them perfect, and we couldn’t expect them to be. You can’t make any one person your world. The trick was to take what each could give you and build your world from it.” — Sarah Dessen

this blog WAS dead. it’s alive again. HALLEHUJAH! (did i spell it right? )

i miss my family(my WHOLE family, which includes my friends and them people i know). PERIOD. i don’t need a reason why i miss them. it’s just because. it’s like love. you don’t need a reason why you love people. you love them just because.

i had the sudden urge to blog again, mostly because i have nothing to do and i thought why not start talking to myself again? HAHAHA! i guess this qualifies pretty much. wayy better than talking to yourself and notice the weird stares you’re getting.

i’m not gonna lie. these past few days, i cried myself to sleep. its the weekends so i don’t get tired from school. i rather school my ass off, come home and just drift off to dreamland than just lazing around the house doing nothing other than sitting at the computer. (i finished my homeworks btw). practically i’m left with nothing to do before bed and i would just sit and stare at the ceiling, which leads to me remembering how it used to be, what coul’ve been and should’ve been. sighhh..pathetic no?

i can say that i’ve changed since i came here to the Philly. i have no friends. HAHAHA! yeaaa roight! well i do. problem is we aynt very close. most of them knew each other since highschool so can’t really beqat that distance. on the PLUS side, i’m LESS talkative now. WAYYY MORE QUIETER THAN BEFORE. and i mean wayyyy more. hahaha! i dont think i would call that a plus but it would be for my friends. hahaha!

i’ve changed. it scares me…

Orientation. :D

adrenalinerush11 — Thu, 03 Jun 2010 14:11:56 +0000

Orientation was fun! Tiring because it was for 2 days, 8am-5pm, but very fun! My classmates are very easy to get along with and the chinese people I met so far couldn’t speak Chinese at all but are very fluent in Tagalog or Bisaya(dialect). O.o really. How am I gonna keep my Chinese when I have no one to talk to? Guess I should try speaking with Lucky at least. OOOOOOHHH! Lucky knows how to sit and stand on command now. HEHEHEHE

Anyways, we had fun and games and got to know each other. Btw, some of my classmates thought that Brunei doesn’t have face powder or whatever, food chains and stuff. -_________- Kinda insulted but I find truth in that Facebook fanpage about people thinking we live in trees or something. HAHAHAHAHA!

They took us on a campus tour around Ateneo. About Ateneo, it’s one of the well-known colleges here in Philippines. I’m glad mother and dad took that education plan for me back when I was a kid. So studying now at one of the top unis is freeeee! Well the tuition is at least. The tuition here is equivalent to B$1200+, and that’s per semester. I can’t thank my parents enough. When I become a mother I will think ahead like they did for my anaks. The campus is as big as from the outdoor b-ball court in school to the primary building. The buildings are tall though adn we have a chapel too. I find it ironic that the chapel’s name is Chapel of Our Lady of the Assumption, quite similar in intitials to the Church of Our Lady of the Assumption back in Brunei. COLA. HEHEHE i just find it a coincidence.

And I met Martin! He didn’t recognize me but I did recognize him! HAHAHA! I must have shocked him a little when I just shouted his name, went up to him and hugged him. I miss him baaaa and I haven’t seen him for a long time. HAHAHAHHAA!

And orientation was that. I have a feeling college life is gonna be fun after all.

at least, I’m hoping it will be.

<3mel

Typical stuff. :P

adrenalinerush11 — Thu, 03 Jun 2010 14:04:34 +0000

No idea why I’m blogging now. I seriously have nothing to blog about. Well, except for the fact that college starts on Monday and I bet my life would be STRESSED from that point on. But I’m excited toooo! The excitement outweighs the stressed part so that’s a plus.

About my foot, it’s better now. I still can’t run or walk long distances though, cuz it hurts if I do. I guess I’ll ask an expert to twist it back for me when I find one. HEHEHEHEHE xD

Yknow what? These days my dreams are really really weird. They’re usually about fighting and kicking butt here and there. Mostly adventures and stuff and I CAN’T SEEM TO FINISH them cuz my aunt would wake me up. -,- I wanna find out who won. The cliched good guys or the unexpected twist : the bad guys. I don’t know. I’m weak when it comes to action movies or adventures. Finding lost treasure or using your brains to solve mysteries and mind-boggling cases. I love all these. And I bet that everyone of us has a bit of a fighter inside. Everyone wants, at one point in a lifetime, to be a hero. Not to be saved, but to save.

Which comes to my next point. Being saved takes as much strength as to save. You give up your pride just by asking for help. Cuz we all thought we are superman. That we can do anything and help people but sometimes, we need to be helped too. We end up worrying about others too much and in the end forget about ourselves. How can we help others if we don’t help ourselves first?

Okay okay. I have NO idea how I ended up there. Sighhh.. from dreams to saving? So off man. HAHAHAHAHHAA! I guess I just want to put my views down or something. It’s nice to debate about something once in a while. I WANT TO DEBATE! Oh by the way, my classmates said my english has a very weird slang during orientation. Like whuaaaattttt? O________O i think I’ll write about orientation some other time.

<3mel

When common sense fails you..

adrenalinerush11 — Sat, 01 May 2010 08:24:39 +0000

Seriously, how many people would be stupid enough to run and then jump on a hammock? I could only think of one. Me. -,-

My freaking foot hurts. Not too mention i heard a CRACK when I fell. Coming from my foot. What the EFF was that?!

My aunt said my face paled and I kinda wanted to lose consciousness on the spot. I saw them FREAKING dots of light!

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Ok, to clarify things I’ma start from the beginning…

Me and Lucky were playing a game of Tag. I was being chased by the way. All of a sudden, I got this EVER SO BRILLIANT idea to jump on the hammock to escape Lucky. And so I jumped. You have to add speed into the jump, cuz I can say I ran moderately fast. My right foot was on the hammock. And of course the hammock, being a hammock, rocked. HIGH. And I fell on my butt. But it wasn’t my butt that received the full blow but my left foot. And i heard a CRACK. or a SNAP. Whatever you call it, I heard SOMETHING. Then came the petrifying pain. Lucky didn’t help at all. He was still playfully biting me, thinking I was just feigning innocence. With the help of my aunt, I got onto the bed. Almost fainted along the way. She said my face paled or in her words ‘namumutla’. And my foot PACKING hurts. I can stand but I can’t walk right. Especially when you try that rotation thing with the foot, it hurts! I don’t feel any broken bones but my foot’s swollen. I think I pulled something.

Whatever it is, I feel stupid. For some reason, my common sense decided that moment was Vacation Day, and it abandoned me. Mother’s definitely gonna freak out. Hopefully by tomorrow my foot will be fine ’cause I really want to enjoy the fiesta. There’s gonna be games!

Rants? :P

adrenalinerush11 — Sat, 01 May 2010 06:22:00 +0000

For some reasons, I feel lazy to update my blog. AHAHAHA! I’m so sorry. I just think my life here in Phils is a bore that I don’t have anything to write about.

Uni’s starting in about a month! SUPERRRRR EXCITEDDDDD! I will post up a picture with me in ADDU’s uniform. And yes, students in uni’s have their uniforms. I don’t mind actually. It kinda saves time rather than picking what to wear for school ’cause if it were me, I’d choose to go to school in my pajamas. Thus the whole uniform thing actually saved the school from witnessing my horrible fashion taste.

I want to go to the beach nearby and just swim all the way back to Brunei. But of course, it’s the BIG BIG sea and there are sharks about. And what’s the point of enjoying the beach when I’m enjoying it myself? I swear I’ve gotten emo here. Maybe just a tad bit.

I miss my family. My sis tried to make me envious by kissing mother on the cheek and brother just had to mention about food. Can i just fly over to Brunei now and come back just in time for orientaton? *glares daggers at a certain CAT who did just that* >:(

On a brighter note, it’s the feast of a nearby church tomorrow. Since this is my first time joining a fiesta. I’m sure it would be fun! From what I’ve heard they have games and competitions, and not to mention a beauty pageant, so it’ll be nice to see ladies going down the road in their gowns and crowns. I bet I would oogle at every dress. I might be what you consider tomboyish but I love dresses! I just hate how I look in them.

See how negative I’ve got? Sighhh.. NEED POSITIVITY! P-O-S-I-TIVITY!

ASK MEEEEEEEE!

adrenalinerush11 — Sat, 03 Apr 2010 06:31:40 +0000

ASK ME QUESTIONS AND BE ANONYMOUS! RAWRRRRR! http://formspring.me/mellooopops

wanna know whats up with me? TWITTER! @mellooopops

HAHAHA! I don’t know what I’m doing. -____________________________- not like anyone would read this. HAHAHAHA! I must have gone bonkers.

but WAIT! All the best people are! HEEEEEEEEEE!

A failed attempt to cheer myself up. -,-

I miss the noise. My fam. Friends. Brunei. (((

back again?

adrenalinerush11 — Thu, 01 Apr 2010 07:11:52 +0000

Now what made me come back to this haven again? Partially because I’m bored and have nothing to do. Except arranging my clothes which are all laid out on my bed. Heheee.

But MOSTLY because I think I owe you guys a post. I haven’t blogged for about 3 months! HAHAHHAA! Really REALLY sorry there.

So what’s new about me? I AM NOW IN THE PHILIPPINES! Surprised? I’m really sorry to those I didn’t tell about me leaving. I rather not be in the episode of tears and memories. So sorry. (( but heyyy! If you’d think I would forget any of you, then you’re mistaken. My memory’s long term so have no fear! xD

Hmmm..my first week here in Phils was kinda hard. Since we don’t have a bed (yet), we slept on the ‘banig’ (Bamboo sticks woven together). And there were no TV, fridge, stove (we had to cook the old fashion way) and aircon. HAHAHAHA! i find this kinda ironic since it’s the Lenten season. So I kinda did my part on the downgrading of my lifestyle there.

The house that I’m staying in belongs to my uncle. He moved to Cebu a couple of years back so he sold the house to my mom. It is also where my mom and aunts lived when they were still teenagers, so you could imagine it’s a pretty old house. But the land is big! I aynt sure how big but yeah it’s big. About the size of the canteen in our school? Bigger i think. Mom’s planning to tear the whole thing down and build a new one..in 3 years time! HAHAHAHAHA! Risky and Melody are lucky. But I say ‘No pain, no gain!’ since I will be designing the whole house and garden. MWAHAHAHAHHAA! Kinda excited! I just can’t wait!

So now I have my own bed and my own room! Yipeeeeee! And there’s TV, fridge, a stove, computer, etc. apparently everything you need. Well except an air-conditioner. HAHAHA! Will be fixing on in the master bedroom once it’s furnished! And I will be sleeping there. MWAHAHAHAHHAA!

So far, i learned how to ride the jeepneys, tricycles, how to navigate the roads and handle accounts. And damnnnnn! Uni is expensive. Nearly 40,000pesos (equivalent to B$1,234) per semester. DAYUMMM! I’m just glad father and mother got it covered with insurance ever since I was a kid. Best parents talaga! :’)

HAHAHA! I’m gonna be buying a puppy! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! Don’t know what breed and I don’t care. As long as he’s mine. Will upload a pic as soon as I can. What about you guys?

MIA

adrenalinerush11 — Wed, 20 Jan 2010 16:30:21 +0000

I apologize for my lack of blogging. I just realized that I haven’t blogged for about 2 weeks. WELL, in those two weeks, I got hecks of experiences. You guys all know those scenes in cartoons and movies where you walk by the sidewalk, and get splashed from head to toe by cars?

yeah like this.

I had one shared together with Kats. HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA! good thing it wasn’t from head to toe but just the bottom-half. BUT STILL. WET. JEANS. IN RAIN. (even with an umbrella) WALKING. FROM HOUSE TO MAGISTRATE COURT TO SCHOOL TO PHILS EMBASSY AND BACK HOME AGAIN. Usually I won’t complain, but the rain has placed a damper on my mood that day plus WET JEANS AND SLIPPERS.

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I WANTA LEARN HOW TO DRIVEEEEEEEE! AND GET A FREAKING CARRRRRRRR!!! :S

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BUT! despite the rain and my ranting, i got to eat all the way. bought chips and hot milo from first emp for the journey. AND AND. when me and kats went to the court to do our papers and those official shiz, we sat there waiting for our turn and all around us were adults. Hahahahahhaa! Felt really grown-up without mother around. *GRINS* XDDDDD

other than that, i’m just around the house doing..ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. it’s only the piano, tv and computer keeping me company these days, other than my family. but other than that, NOTHING. i got sooo bored that i painted my nails one colour and taking it off once it’s done and putting on another colour. some days, i would open a book and read, then sleep. Eat. I think I have learnt to become a piggy myself. :3 thought of writing a song bout my boredom but nahhh..words don’t come easy to me as melodies do. guess i’ll have to work on that.

People have been leaving me behind. WHY MAY? WHY CIN? WHYYYY WHYYYYY? :’(((( sighhh. gonna miss them sooo much! been through a lot together these years, haven’t we? I pray that we have the chance to meet again in the nearest possible future! Till then, let’s work hard to achieve our goals and dreams. (and avoid those bets. )

missing you guys already.

i haven’t played an ounce of b-ball till today. feels good to finally sweat and run around here and there. downside to that is MY ALL-TIME FAVOURITE GREEN PAIR OF SLIPPERS BROKE! both of them. :’(( i put really high respect for those slippers cuz they’ve been with me for 2 years i think. or less than that. i practically wear them to almost everything, except events where it aynt appropriate. so yeahhh. lots of memories with them. RIP dear green slippers of mine. (((

applied for that consumer fair thing. $50 a day plus commission for 4 days. Pray we got in. *crosses fingers*

what have you lot been up to? x)

tempted >;)

adrenalinerush11 — Mon, 04 Jan 2010 17:52:17 +0000

I wonder why i always blog at the most outrageous times of the night. Well now may not be late for some people But it is late for me. And for mother. HAHAHAHA! Well, the night is the only time where i am sane enough to think things through. And also a time for me to tell my body to rest. But sleeping right is far, far away from my to-do list right now. Now I just want to blog.

It has been 4 days since I lost another loved one. Well technically he’s not dead, he’s just not here. Somewhere where I’m not. He’s miles and miles away. And yes, I’ve been bawling my eyes out and crying myself to sleep, waking up the next morning feeling totally good and chirpy, forgetting that I’ve cried for hours the previous night. And this routine repeats. Really weird but that’s what crying does to me. So far, nobody has seen me REALLY bawling my eyes out. You wouldn’t want to see me. To me, crying is somewhat like a weakness and I feel totally vulnerable. Which is why I don’t wanna cry in public. I hate losing control of myself.

That being said, I think I did a pretty good job not tearing up when we sent him off at the airport, although deep inside, I’m an unimaginable wreck. Yes, I’ve loved the person but sometimes, you gotta learn to let go when the time’s right for your sake. Coz sometimes you just get tired of holding on and can just fall when you least knew. Might as well let go of that rope and fall knowing. That way you expect the hurt. Which will hurt less than done the other way. Mehhh..this emo shiz is so not me but we got part of ourselves that we aynt proud about.

One thing I know for sure, I’m gonna miss him like crazy.

Being at the airport, sending him off, got me into thinking that I will be in the same situation 2 months from now. Sometimes, you just can’t help thinking whether you mean anything to anybody. I can’t imagine leaving Brunei and actually staying, studying and living someplace else. But the thought excites me. Starting your life in someplace new, a blank, clean slate with no strings attached. Yes, I’m ecstatic to start college life. But starting my new life in someplace new alone is not something i consider very comforting. I’m gonna be leaving everything I hold dear. Guess I might as well just dress as a samurai to prepare myself for battle! xD

I NEED TO FIND A FREAKING JOB! I am restless at home and since I aynt going to school, it has been a unanimous vote that i am now the housekeeper of this household. It’s not that I’m complaining about chores. It’s just that when you’ve done everything, you just sit around with nothing left to do. Even the internet now bores me. SOMETIMES! and not too mention I need the freaking money. I just want to buy stuff through my efforts and not ask all the time.

I feel like I’m supposed to be in the Phils right now, taking them exams, learning the roads and meeting enw people. But that just have to wait won’t it?

oh! did i mention i bought Tempted? Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! xD

I was actually saving this for next month but heck. Read the cover. TEMPTED! >:D

(this is basically the 6th book. first 3 available in the school library. the other 2 is with me. if you wanna read through the comp that is )

Nights!