family.
“What is family? They were the people who claimed you. In good, in bad, in parts or in whole, they were the ones who showed up, who stayed in there, regardless. It wasn’t just about blood relations or shared chromosomes, but something wider, bigger. We had many families over time. Our family of origin, the family we created, and the groups you moved through while all of this was happening: friends, lovers, sometimes even strangers. None of them perfect, and we couldn’t expect them to be. You can’t make any one person your world. The trick was to take what each could give you and build your world from it.” — Sarah Dessen
this blog WAS dead. it’s alive again. HALLEHUJAH! (did i spell it right? 
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i miss my family(my WHOLE family, which includes my friends and them people i know). PERIOD. i don’t need a reason why i miss them. it’s just because. it’s like love. you don’t need a reason why you love people. you love them just because. 
i had the sudden urge to blog again, mostly because i have nothing to do and i thought why not start talking to myself again? HAHAHA! i guess this qualifies pretty much. wayy better than talking to yourself and notice the weird stares you’re getting.
i’m not gonna lie. these past few days, i cried myself to sleep. its the weekends so i don’t get tired from school. i rather school my ass off, come home and just drift off to dreamland than just lazing around the house doing nothing other than sitting at the computer. (i finished my homeworks btw). practically i’m left with nothing to do before bed and i would just sit and stare at the ceiling, which leads to me remembering how it used to be, what coul’ve been and should’ve been. sighhh..pathetic no?
i can say that i’ve changed since i came here to the Philly. i have no friends. HAHAHA! yeaaa roight! well i do. problem is we aynt very close. most of them knew each other since highschool so can’t really beqat that distance. on the PLUS side, i’m LESS talkative now. WAYYY MORE QUIETER THAN BEFORE. and i mean wayyyy more. hahaha! i dont think i would call that a plus but it would be for my friends. hahaha!
i’ve changed. it scares me…
